a dream...

I saw a dream... you were waiting for me...

across the rainbow and the blue sea...

sun dawning... and the rays bending through your hair...

buds blossoming... you walk towards me with so much flair...

I held your hand... your eyes gazing at me with uttermost desire...

that stare made me so cold... couldn't move as if stuck in a mire...

the warmth of your breath... I felt on my face...

that lingering smile... which in my mind left a trace...

suddenly I felt... as if you were slipping away...

though I tighten my grasp... was losing you with a fray...

and then, you were gone... again I was left all alone...

left with pain, tears and a soul that wasn't my own...

I kept on waiting... wanted to have you back...

kept on searching for you... may be on the wrong track...

I woke up yelling your name... couldn't sleep again... to dream again... needed someone to croon...

and then I realised...

It was just another dream... another dream that ended way too soon...

all this...

I want to say things to you that you have never heard...

make you feel light like a flying bird...

I want to take you to places you've never been...

show you the world that you haven't seen...

I want to live for you like I never did...

Its you I wish for not the world instead...

I want to look into your eyes and say a little prayer...

make you smile and show you how much I care...

I want to run away with you to a neverland...

only you, me, rainbow and the ocean sand...

I want you to want me the way I do...

whatever life brings If you are with me... I know I'll get through...

I want...

I want...

to wake up from a dream unrealized...

shake up that numbness that makes me paralysed...

may be I am wasted... still, all this I ever wanted...

and then again...

I was reminded... my wishes are never granted...

my wishes are never granted...

still, all this...

all this I ever wanted...

you just have to...

My efforts to live, all for you...

each breathe of me, with your name goes through...

I won't promise you the stars...

I can light myself to brighten your dark...

you just have to ask...

My love for you, that keeps growing...

the air that brings you to me, keeps flowing...

I can cry for you, I can make you laugh...

you just have to ask...

I will be there for you, at each phase...

to fight for you, just in case...

for you I live, for you I can die...

to keep you unscathed...

you just have to ask...

My feelings for you, I may never reveal...

still I want you to know, how I feel...

my love so true... so chaste...

I had my say...

I may never ask...

If ever....

If ever stars become words... I will write them all and make a song...

dedicate it to you... and to the world where we belong...

If ever water becomes notes... I will hold the oceans and make a symphony...

to rid you of your blues... It will last till eternity...

If ever sunshine becomes love... I will get the sun and make your world bright...

to put the smile on your face... and make everything so right...

If ever time becomes togetherness... I will hold the world and keep us together...

spend every moment with you... and make each one last forever...

If ever air becomes happiness... I will stop breathing and leave It all for you...

smother myself to the end... If only you knew...

If only...

If ever...

the way she...

The way she speaks...wish I was a word...

could have meant something to her and she would have heard...

each time I think of her... my mind enters a bliss...

I love her...love her for everything she is...

The way she gazes...wish I was the scene...

she could have noticed me and in her eyes I would have been...

I may have a lot...still she is the one I miss...

I love her...love her for everything she is...

The way she prays...wish I was a bead...

she could have held me and I would have been with her in times of need...

don't want to lose her now or I'll be shattered with the words etched on every single piece...

I love her...love her for everything she is...

The way she hum...wish I was a song...

she could have played and learned me and I would have been long...

each breathe of me becomes a lyric and it goes like this...

I love her...love her for everything she is...

I love her...love her for everything she is...

look back...

When you have no shoulder left to cry on...

when you can't find the right person to rely on...

when the world seems to have lost love and everybody hating...

just look back...

I'll be waiting...

If you find yourself lost in the dark...

no way to go... no end no start...

don't fear to see your ways dissipating...

just look back...

I'll be waiting...

If the time for you seems to have stop...

when you have nothing to cling onto nothing to hope...

when you want to share your pains with someone relating...

just look back...

I'll be waiting...

If in life you set out to feel love again...

you don't have to go too far and wander in disdain...

I have said it all the way and I will keep on repeating...

just look back...

I'll be waiting...

just look back...

I'll be...

a walk down the lane...

Those moments would last forever...

still my mind drained...like rested never...

still the wounds are sore and I can feel the pain...

when I walk down the memory lane...

The world no more amuses me...

feel so incomplete...even my own shadow refuses me...

these thoughts make me lose my mind and drive me insane...

when I walk down the memory lane...

I keep no regrets...

may be it was me who wasn't perfect...

you owe me a reason and need to explain...

when I walk down the memory lane...

Memories still haunt me and I fear the worst...

longing to be with you like a poor man's thirst...

I feel so numb and ask myself "can I feel love again"...

when I walk down the memory lane...

Unsaid...

Tears roll down my cheek when I think of you...
and I feel my moist eyes like air filled with morning dew...
words fill my brain... and thoughts in my head...
still I feel...
somethings are best left unsaid...

The pain of losing you now...I cant bear...
my soul shouting...and I pretend I can't hear...
so many feelings yet to be expressed...
still I feel...
somethings are best left unsaid...

With you I will live my life and through...
when I wake up in the morning...by my side...I want you...
without your love I feel so dead...
still I feel...
somethings are best left unsaid...

May be I'll always long to be with you...with you till eternity...
I feel so helpless...and I ain't asking anybody to pity...
I'll be waiting for you at the exact place where you'll ask me to stay and say "I'll go ahead"...
still I feel...
somethings are best left unsaid...

dilemma....

when I try to sleep and I close my eyes...

when I try to breathe but the air flies...

when I turn to god and forget my prayer...

when I shout it out loud but nobody hears...

when I try to see and the world escapes...

when I try to feel but everything seems fake...

when I try to run and don't know where to go...

when I need to stay but I follow...

when I try to forget and cannot get through...

when I try to speak but I talk about you...

when I try to write and lose my words...

when I lyric my thoughts but everything absurd...

may be its not me...its you always...

you put me in this dilemma...now show me the way...

there are things I want you to know...may be the message not getting through...

still, I need to tell...

wherever I am...I am missing you...

wherever I am...I am missing you...

Once...

Once a boy...he loved a girl...

he thought she was...she was his world...

he was so true...his love had no cure...

he wrote songs...his words so pure...

he used his might...to win her heart...

nothing came to him and he fell apart...

he was so lost...lost like a soldier shot in a war...

he blamed himself...he asked for a reason from a shooting star...

there were no reasons...there were no replies...

may be there weren't any answers...no alibi...

he knew he had to forget...

he knew there was nothing to regret...

he knew he had to do it again...

may be he was so strong...he feared no pain...

he picked his pen dipped in blood...with his head in a whirl...

then he wrote...

ONCE A BOY...HE LOVED A GIRL...

HE KNOWS SHE IS...SHE IS HIS WORLD...

You make it right....

You light up my sky...you make my world bright...

don't want to lose you now...need you by my side...

you are the one I want...you are the one I need...

just when I thought I have got all wrong...you make it right...

I will change the world the way you want it to be...

I will leave all for you if you want me...

I will bring every happiness to you with all my might...

just when I thought I have got all wrong...you make it right...

With you...I want to hold time...

want moments to last eternity...without you living feels like crime...

I still remember the day I met you...thinking of you...I was awake all night...

just when I thought I have got all wrong...you make it right...

When I look into your eyes...a million words...can't explain how I feel...

may be its me...the problem I cant deal...

for you I can face the world...for you I will fight...

just when I thought I have got all wrong...you make it right...

When I......

Your smile as bright as a ray of sunlight...

your face so angel like...

that twinkle in your eye...that lingers right through...

when I fell in love with you...

The sound of your laughter...which makes music so pale...

your talks which..in my mind leave a trail...

was I dreaming...or my dream came true...

when I fell in love with you...

With every breathe I take...I wish you were here...

to be with you...show how much I care...

I was so dazed...didn' t know what to do...

when I fell in love with you...

I am not asking you...to nurture the same...

if I am not the one...I wont blame...

I'll pray for your happiness...but I won't bid adieu...

I'll be waiting...

because...

I fell in love with you...

a wish....

People say things of the past... things we lost...

I still look for you...may be I am seeking happiness at any cost...

May be you have what you always wanted...

but believe me my wishes too were never granted...

May be I never loved you enough...May be my prayers never heard...

May be my faith a fallacy...My words dearth...

There is nothing I want more...I am prepared to lose all...

I will be waiting till the end...when darkness falls...

I sit by the window...a silent whisper a silent tear...

Longing to be with you...wishing you were here...

If only....

Everybody thinks I am free...and I know I am bounded by chains...

they think I am strong enough...and I can still feel the pain...

If only she knew...

Nobody knows how much I need her...and I know I cant do it on my own...

I smile and laugh with everyone...and I shed a tear when I am alone...

If only she knew...

Everybody believed I am done...and I was still in the thought...

they think I am still fighting...and I know I was long lost...

If only she knew...

People tell things falling in...and I feel like falling apart...

nobody knows I am still praying...only I know she is still in my heart...

If only she knew...

If only she knew...

I still......

There are things i want to tell...there are things i want to hear...

I still long to be with you...show you how much I care...
The feeling still compels me...something really tells me...

tells me you are there...

I still long to be with you...show you how much I care...
There will be things I achieve...there will be moments of grief...

there will be sorrows, there will be joys...

but everything incomplete...

There is nothing but my life I want to share...

I still long to be with you...show you how much I care...
I will wait for you...till its time for me to bid adieu...

when they ask me to bow and say my last prayer...

I will tell my god...

I still long to be with you...show you how much I care...

I still long to be with you...show you how much I care...

Memory...

I don't know where you are...may be the place you don't want to be...

I cant help it...

the only thing I have left of you....your memory...

sometimes they fade....sometimes they make me crave...

I shiver with pain...still I act brave....

I ain't calling it any misery....

the only thing I have left of you...your memory...

I run around looking for you...catching the glimpses of faces...

I have known few...

I won't find you...people tell me making a mockery...

the only thing I have left of you...your memory...

may be someday...when the pain takes me down with a fray...

I'll set a few things free...

my love...

my soul...

and

the only thing I have left of you...your memory...

I don't know....

I don't know where I am heading, I still want to move...

the burden of life I am shedding, I still want to move...

I can't take it anymore....

I can feel the pain inside my core...

mark my words and I ain't kidding, I still want to move...

Something....

why emotions when nobody care....why god when you are my prayer
why love when you know you wont get it back....i was counting the moments but now i have lost track
why cry when the tears are dry....now i smile but all it means is a wry
am i stuck or has the time stopped....my life ended or has it been cropped
sometimes i want to run but i have no place to go....sometimes i want to stay but i have to follow
there are moments when i am happy but all i do is cry....there are moments when i am sad and i dont know why
all i know and i know its true....something is missing and that something is you

I cant....

No matter where I go, I cant forget you....
No matter what I do, I cant forget you....
the blush on your cheek, makes me a freak...
the fragrance of your air, tells me you are there...
the swish of your hair, which i still smear...
No matter how hard I try...
No matter how much I cry...
the tears too smile a wry and tell me...
I cant forget you...
I cant forget you...

my prayer.....

they say love happens once...go for it again...i dare...
the beauty she was....she was so fair....
i again had to go through it...the pain is not what i care....
there i was...again...sleepless...gazin at the sky with a stare...
i tried again to console myself....
i knelt down...closed my eyes....
there she was...as always...like a snare...
i still love her...
i still love her...
i found her in my prayer......

this was d first one and d most special one.....

The instant i saw her, she felt like a rose...

everything around me, simply froze....

her eyes were majestic, her lips were cold,

her face was angelic, my breath i couldn't hold...

i could have told....

I noticed her everyday, never allowed my emotions to have a say...

she fascinated me, but i wasn't too bold...

i could have told...

I waited for the moment, i tried real hard...

never allowed my emotions to take gaurd...

she always felt like a dream when she walked in the cold...

i could have told...

I waited too long, realised she was gone...

i was left with nothing, except to mourn...

i cried my heart... i cried my soul...

now i know...

i should have told...