a wish....

People say things of the past... things we lost...

I still look for you...may be I am seeking happiness at any cost...

May be you have what you always wanted...

but believe me my wishes too were never granted...

May be I never loved you enough...May be my prayers never heard...

May be my faith a fallacy...My words dearth...

There is nothing I want more...I am prepared to lose all...

I will be waiting till the end...when darkness falls...

I sit by the window...a silent whisper a silent tear...

Longing to be with you...wishing you were here...

If only....

Everybody thinks I am free...and I know I am bounded by chains...

they think I am strong enough...and I can still feel the pain...

If only she knew...

Nobody knows how much I need her...and I know I cant do it on my own...

I smile and laugh with everyone...and I shed a tear when I am alone...

If only she knew...

Everybody believed I am done...and I was still in the thought...

they think I am still fighting...and I know I was long lost...

If only she knew...

People tell things falling in...and I feel like falling apart...

nobody knows I am still praying...only I know she is still in my heart...

If only she knew...

If only she knew...

I still......

There are things i want to tell...there are things i want to hear...

I still long to be with you...show you how much I care...
The feeling still compels me...something really tells me...

tells me you are there...

I still long to be with you...show you how much I care...
There will be things I achieve...there will be moments of grief...

there will be sorrows, there will be joys...

but everything incomplete...

There is nothing but my life I want to share...

I still long to be with you...show you how much I care...
I will wait for you...till its time for me to bid adieu...

when they ask me to bow and say my last prayer...

I will tell my god...

I still long to be with you...show you how much I care...

I still long to be with you...show you how much I care...

Memory...

I don't know where you are...may be the place you don't want to be...

I cant help it...

the only thing I have left of you....your memory...

sometimes they fade....sometimes they make me crave...

I shiver with pain...still I act brave....

I ain't calling it any misery....

the only thing I have left of you...your memory...

I run around looking for you...catching the glimpses of faces...

I have known few...

I won't find you...people tell me making a mockery...

the only thing I have left of you...your memory...

may be someday...when the pain takes me down with a fray...

I'll set a few things free...

my love...

my soul...

and

the only thing I have left of you...your memory...

I don't know....

I don't know where I am heading, I still want to move...

the burden of life I am shedding, I still want to move...

I can't take it anymore....

I can feel the pain inside my core...

mark my words and I ain't kidding, I still want to move...

Something....

why emotions when nobody care....why god when you are my prayer
why love when you know you wont get it back....i was counting the moments but now i have lost track
why cry when the tears are dry....now i smile but all it means is a wry
am i stuck or has the time stopped....my life ended or has it been cropped
sometimes i want to run but i have no place to go....sometimes i want to stay but i have to follow
there are moments when i am happy but all i do is cry....there are moments when i am sad and i dont know why
all i know and i know its true....something is missing and that something is you

I cant....

No matter where I go, I cant forget you....
No matter what I do, I cant forget you....
the blush on your cheek, makes me a freak...
the fragrance of your air, tells me you are there...
the swish of your hair, which i still smear...
No matter how hard I try...
No matter how much I cry...
the tears too smile a wry and tell me...
I cant forget you...
I cant forget you...

my prayer.....

they say love happens once...go for it again...i dare...
the beauty she was....she was so fair....
i again had to go through it...the pain is not what i care....
there i was...again...sleepless...gazin at the sky with a stare...
i tried again to console myself....
i knelt down...closed my eyes....
there she was...as always...like a snare...
i still love her...
i still love her...
i found her in my prayer......

this was d first one and d most special one.....

The instant i saw her, she felt like a rose...

everything around me, simply froze....

her eyes were majestic, her lips were cold,

her face was angelic, my breath i couldn't hold...

i could have told....

I noticed her everyday, never allowed my emotions to have a say...

she fascinated me, but i wasn't too bold...

i could have told...

I waited for the moment, i tried real hard...

never allowed my emotions to take gaurd...

she always felt like a dream when she walked in the cold...

i could have told...

I waited too long, realised she was gone...

i was left with nothing, except to mourn...

i cried my heart... i cried my soul...

now i know...

i should have told...